Scott picked Travis up from Dallas
two weeks ago. This was from
a video Lynna took of her
"baby" walking back in the door!!!!
Our Superman is back home from
his two month stay in Dallas at CNS.
God bless him!!!
He actually wanted to stay there
because he realized the progress
he was making from the awesome
physical therapy there.
But such is life...it is just too
expensive for him to stay.
The funding ran out and of course
insurance won't let him stay there.
Don't even get me started on that though!
He had another swallow study done
there before he left. Again I found
myself pleading with God
for healing, improvement, anything.
Someone posted this on Lynna's
Facebook and I thought it was perfect:
"Please please Lord, give Travis
this gift. He is working so hard,
has not lost faith and has brought
together your people."
It is SO true and I found myself
questioning God when we did not
get the results that we wanted
from that test. I mean seriously,
how much more can one person take?
How much more can his mother
and dad take? His Grandmother?
Heck, even his Aunt!
It hurts so, so much.
Then I read this on Kelly's Korner
and it was just profound to me:
"We knew God could heal her.
We read in Mark 7:31-37 that God
can heal the deaf. But we pray more
for His will in her life. I don't want
to interfere with something amazing He
might have for her. We so often draw
closest to God during tough times and
this may be what makes her cling to
God the most. I've prayed often that
I won't stand in the way of things
God wants to use to bring the girls
to Him. I'm not the rescuer. HE IS."
Even though I steer from this
and I doubt and I question
and my heart literally aches
over Travis and his situation -
(sometimes it really does just
overtake me...a hurt/pain...
deep within me. Makes
me think how often my beautiful
sister must feel this gut wrenching pain
which is far more often and far more deep).
The suffering: his loneliness, his
lack of friends, his frustrations, his struggles
to do everything...is really what
gets me. But I believe in what Kelly said!!!
I really believe that even though
I have these emotions and I long
for God to answer my prayers the
way "I" want them answered.
I KNOW. I know deeper
than the hurt that I can't stand in
the way nor do I want to (nor can I)
of God's bigger, PERFECT plan.
We are so glad he's home and LOVE
spending time with him. We are
praying for good things to come his way:)
Please keep praying for our Superman!