How They LOVE Me!

I try my VERY hardest to keep what

I'm going through with my dad separate

from my sweet little family.  

Truthfully, I'd love to shut my life down

and focus 110% on my parents ~

they deserve it. 

But I can't and I won't.

My mom wouldn't allow it 

and I KNOW my dad wouldn't want me 

to do that either.  

I only take "shifts" at the nursing home

that don't interfere with the kids' activities,

but any free nights or time we do have

I go and spend time with my dad

and thus give my mother (and sisters) a break.  

It's hard.  

Sometimes I need a night at home,

but I just don't know how much time 

I have left with my sweet dad.

He needs my love and my sweet mom

needs breaks.  I'm often torn

and my heart feels pretty broken.  

Allllll that to say, I don't want 

my favorite four to feel it.

Obviously Troy does and he's so

kind and understanding.

I try not to talk about how sad or

hard this is to the kids, but deep down

I know they know

and I'm grateful for that.

Hopefully they will grow from this as well.  

One day I was coming home from

being at the nursing home

and this was what I saw

when I opened the garage door:

I love these crazy four with all of my being!!!

They know just how to LOVE me

when I need it most:)