One Year Ago

One year ago today (July 25th)
 was the worst day of my life.

Since I've already written about that day myself,

I'll let Walker tell how he remembers it.

I asked him this morning

 if he remembered.....

"Yes, we were playing in the living room and

Haddie was watching her dumb dance video,

the phone rang, and I said,

'Mom, the phone'.  

You answered it, then you went crazy,

 then you were screaming and

crying and you left. 

I wanted to go with you to see Travis."

This day truly is a celebration of the miracle

of Travis.  I can't lie that it also brings about
sadness and emotion for our family.
As much good that has come from
this accident, you still never EVER
want to see someone you love so dearly
go through what Travis has AND is
having to endure.  It's just AWFUL.

We were told early on that we just had

to get to the "ONE year mark"...that's
how long it takes for a brain injury.
Then we would know how
Travis was going to end up.

I remember telling Lynna,

"What's one year of our lives?"

Well, we aren't where we want

Travis to be AT ALL.  We aren't

naive anymore...we know Travis will
never be the same again...

but we also have FAITH and

we know that God is NOT done

performing His miracles on

our new Travis!!!!!!!

Thank God for faith......

and that it usually kicks in just when

you are desperate for it. 

In reality, today, I just miss my Travis. :(

I miss his voice, his presence,

leaning into him for a hug

from his 6'4" frame
and feeling his strength. 

I miss the Travis that ALWAYS
played and hugged and loved
on my children...no matter
where we were.  He never minded
sitting by and entertaining them at
at Fuddruckers where we always ate. :(

I just miss him and hate

that this has happened to him.
I miss his life for him.

Thank God though we do

still have him to touch and

"talk" to even if it isn't quite

the same.  He has changed so many lives
without even saying a WORD.

"You can find Me not only in beauty and

birdcalls, but also in tragedy

and faces filled with grief.

I can take the deepest sorrow

and weave it into a pattern for good."

This day is very much

feeled with mixed emotions.

"Draw near to God and He
will draw near to you." 
James 4:8
I can assure you that this
verse is true.

 

Thank YOU for praying for

Travis.  God's goodness through

His people has been so abundant
throughout this entire year.

And thank you Sweet, Sweet
Jesus for the MIRACLE of Travis........

July 25, 2010

July 25, 2011

A real life miracle from God!

My thoughts on the one year anniversary...
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